Flower

I know its dump. But I want him back, all what he brings with him.
The fights the good times, the sad times and all the other times we have had together, I could go throug all that just to be with him, I just couldnt see the meaning after the 3 break up. But now I can, cleare then ever, I want him back more then I want anything else, he means the world to me.
He was my first and my only real love, and I'm not over him and I never think I will be.

We had the most amazing 5 years together, as boyfriend and girlf´riend and as bestfriends. We laught and we cried together, we were always there for each other. I will never forget the times I was so sick and had to go home from practic and he just sat with me to my father picked me up, not saying a word just holding me close, and in that minute I could just feel my whole world vibrating trough him, and in that second I knewed, I loved him and I still know because I always get that happy feeling inside when he text me, it doesnt have to be anything speciel when he text it can be ''hey'' it still makes me happy and gives me butterflys in my stomach.

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I knew it

I aim, I hit and I'm right he has no interest in me what so ever. He got what he wanted out of me and now I mean nothing more then an old pair of shoes to him.
And the worst part is that I already knew because its the same every time I just can't hold on to them and I hate myself for it!!

Irritating

I can't get you out of my mind, and it's frustrating!
I don't want to let you go but I don't wan't to think about you all the time because I know that, whatever I feel for you, you dont feel it back......

Someone that can put themself in my place, and know how this feels???
It's terrible and if it's realy bad it can feel like it's eating you from inside...

No fun

hey... no that feeling when you look at your phone after being away for a while and no one as texted you what so ever... and if someone has its your mother??
Well i know and its a pretty not funny feeling.
You feel alone and not appreciated, like the world couldn't give a shit, if you were there or not.

But its not that I feel sorry for myself, I'm obvisouly just not that person you want to text.
I'm that kind of person that people only get friends with, if they can use you for something, and then afterwards just throws you away, like you are some old shoes.
And with guys its just like I'm only interesting for 2-3 weeks and then they find some skinny bitch that are so much prettier then me, and then I'm not interesting enymore. And of course I dont want them to stick around if they want someone else, but it would be nice to find a guy who would keep me for a longer time, just for a change.

But for all you people who feels the same way, dont get depressed or think you are a bad person, course you are not, you are a wonderfull person and I'm sure someone loves you just the way you are, and if they are not in your life jet I'm pretty sure you will find that person/persons very soon!

Answer

He answered me today, I was so happy, maybe I jumped into conclusions to fast, maybe his phone just died. But anyways.
I miss him so much it hurts but I don't want to be to Klingonish so I can't write it to him, we aren't even a couple so if I wrote it, it would be like saying that I wanted to get together, and believe me I do but it's just so complicated when we are so fare from each other....

Loved you?

I cant believe you would do this to me, after all I have given you the thanks is to cut me of like nothing ever happened.?
I even gave you a change to say that you don't want me but no you are using the silent way if telling me:'(

I really like you but if it has to be this way I don't know if I can take it?
I have been heard to many times before and I don't know if I can go through the sadness and self blaming again??